EMERGENCY!!! Ok why must people who i thought were smart always be so blind to the bad things they are doing?! i mean i have a friend who is just going out with people from online who she just met! and has never met in person! i mean she just gets into their cars...not a worry in the world! i kind of hope she gets kid napped so she can realize whats going on, but knowing her she would probably just go online and find another guy right after she returns home if she does. and it's never a girl that she hangs out with so u know its because of sex! i'm so tempted to do a binding spell to stop all this bullshit! Bind her from doing more harm...but i actually want her to get hurt-as bad as that sounds-so she can learn her life lesson with out my interfering. i mean she says she got raped by one of these guys...but if she did then y is she still doing this?! she has no self respect or respect for her body...i mean she dated a 35 yr old and possibly a 42 yr old when she was 14! and i think age doesn't matter but 42??? i mean come on common sense! it's not love   it's lust! and it's pathetic and it's making my life really hard and it's already bad enough   i don't need her bull and drama to add to wat is already there...and the moment it starts going good she just fucks it up! i tried to TELL her to stop because it was hurting more than her, but all she could do was YELL at me! calling me a slutty bitch when i've one boyfriend in the last lake 1/2 year and she's had about five at a time! and slept with everyone she meets online! when we confronted her mom about it to just stop her, when we said she was sneaking out and sleeping with people from online' all her mom did was say "THAT WAS IN THE SUMMER!" and since she works at the school, since then everyone has hated US not the girl who i will just call Tracey. and Tracey just thinks this is normal!  it is not normal and i am very tempted to do something about it...

This one guy that we were both talking to called me up but i rejected his call cause i was busy on the phone with something more important. he left me an evil message, then threatened me over the phone when i three-wayed him and Tracey, without him knowing Tracey was on the phone.  I asked her not to talk to him cause he was psycho. the next day at school she said she was still talking to him. I asked "Y are u still talking to u. don't u remember him going crazy on the phone?!"   

She said " I remember but then after u hung up he called me and i thought 'how can i not talk to someone who makes me smile so much' "  

she is so clueless! and this guy has pedifile charges against him but he tells her its not true and that all he did was talk to her and she believs him! wtf?! he has restraining orders against him and just cause he deny's it she believs him! that is just stupid! it is so easy for him to lie...and she just sucks up every one of them...but whatever. i'll just take things day by day and see how it goes i guess...i'll keep whoever cares updated. 

ok some of u might think my pictures are demented and darkly suicidal but they only show how i have felt for most of my life. But now i may have those feelings but i'm not gonna be like some people i know and announce that i wanna die and that life is terrible! i'm gonna go out and have fun and try to enjoy life even though it usually isn't very good. the future is still to come so idk...but i'm not just some suicidal girl! lol just to clear that up. i am fun to talk to cause i don't just sit there complaining about killing myself like most people would jump to conclusions and think.

~*Blessed Be*~

<3 Becca 

You know, Everyone says "because it is different it is satanism. Because u are different u are with satan." Then if you turn to their beliefs you are instantly loved! this world isn't right. I mean people say this isn't possible, but if it isn't possible then all of us just must be a billion looney people that are seeing things, because to us this all is real. i mean think about it it has to be real because everyone has stuff like this happen...they just blame it on lack of sleep or pill overdose but seriously, when you see visions of things but the excuses are getting lame and the truth is revealed. Life isn't all scientific with women bowing down to mens every need because god and jesus said to. It is so much more than that. Everyones beliefs are different, but my beliefs are that people should stop discriminating against us just because we know the truth and don't follow christianity/catholics strict laws...because we are different...

i don't know if you guys understand what i'm trying to say or just think i am just some psycho who hates christians-cause i'm not. i have many christian friends! :) i've just seen some people, some very close to me, hurt me inside because of my beliefs and findings of religion.

Blessed Be

<3Becca